last monday, I realized that 2017 was sneaking up on me. that time last year, I was already very aware of the message on my heart that brave was to be the word for 2016. brave and I have had a good ol' time, with highs and lows, and great improvement. I had received a new journal for my birthday that I planned on saving for use with my yearly devotional beginning with the new year. however, I decided to start then, and journal out my journey to my word of the year.
I had two ideas going into this week, thoughts that might make it to my word of the year. the first was content. I texted my cousin this reasoning for thinking about content:
"and this year's going to be one of a lot of change and probably disappointment since I'm graduating & finding a job & stuff
plus it's something I struggle with anyway--like being content with not having any husband prospects yet & being content with a less-than-perfect church family & being content with myself as a human"
so, content was definitely an option. second was joy. these were my thoughts on joy, a few days later:
"I’m kind of leaning towards joy at the moment, because I feel like contentment is part of joy, so I would be killing two birds with one stone? I don’t know…
plus since ‘brave’ really helped but obviously I still have bad anxiety and joy is like the opposite of anxiety"
I gave my word options over to my cousin, c, and my best friend, j, and asked them their opinions. c really liked content. j really liked joy. (just now seeing the correlations between their votes and their initials, btw). so that was not helpful. I was so determined to chose between to two and I simply couldn't. so on thursday, I prayed earnestly during my devotional time. I prayed that God would show me what the truth He wanted me to live in for the next year. and ohmygosh He did it. I was doing she reads truth's holding tight to permanent study.
the first day, my notes ended in 'just as He was faithful, He is faithful'
the second day, I journaled that I could trust 'in God's faithfulness to improve me'
the third day, I wrote 'He who calls me is faithful'
the fourth day (December 30th), I noted that God is 'faithful to never let go or give up on me'
today was a grace day. a day to reflect. I looked back over my notes and realized the emphasis God had placed on my heart was evident in them--faithful.
over the next year, I will focus on the truth that God is faithful. God is faithful in my aunt's breast cancer diagnoses. God is faithful in my stressful semester of student teaching. God is faithful in my upcoming 21st birthday. God is faithful in my upcoming college graduation. God is faithful in my search for a post-graduation job. God is faithful whether I find a boyfriend in 2017 or not. God is faithfulness is not related to my physical appearance. God's faithfulness is not related to my emotional state. God's faithfulness is only related to His character. His never-failing character. He probably won't teach me about His faithfulness every day of 2017. but He will be faithful to me, regardless of what this year brings.
and so, my word of the year in 2017 is faithful. over the next few days I'll be pursuing my phone case, necklace, and wall prints for the year. I'll be studying songs, hymns, poems, and verses relating to God's faithfulness. I will prepare for a year of reminders of God's faithfulness.
much love,
sj